Linger? NO Longer!
The gems are for him.
I try hard to find it, dig it inside the Gaia – the only planet with chocolate, but it has been a week the gems remain still in my hand …
And him, no longer in hand.
Valhalland, 30 April 2007
GOD does not play ‘hide & seek’
I saw God in his smile. He picked me up that night when we’re going to have Thursday night prayer somewhere in the corner of a Mosque. I closed the door of my room quickly, and ran over to see his smile again. God was there. And I smiled back and said, “Hi …” I just saw God in his sincere smile. Thank you … for smiling at me.
Again, when ‘nature call’ and I had to pee, I entered my bathroom and have a nice rest there, and I said, “Oh God … that was good!” and God was with me that time – in the bathroom. Again, when sadness touch the bottom of my conscience, when rain pour down very hard, when someone hurt me, when and where …. God is with and within me. Again, that night when my spiritual teacher smiled at me and I smiled back, and I saw that God was in his smile. It was the first smile since five months I join the Sufism Group Discussion in Kalasan. Thank you God …
And I wonder why people seek God and trembled of the Godlessness in their life?
Why people cried?
Why people should be advised to be patient when the music of God stop playing while it never happen and that happened because you just don’t want to listen.
Why?
Why seek God, while God never play hide & seek?
You cannot found God in book, in deep contemplation, meditation, or even in board discussion, but … you can find God in people and how you get along and appreciate them. Like, I found God in my words today. Thank you …
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|Life is a Labyrinth|
Yesterday, I was watching film with my sister. She picked the right film to watch together with Mum and I. The title is “Pan’s Labyrinth”. It was a great movie and I recommended to all to watch it. The movie was told us about the beginning of life, death, dream, hope, fantasy, and destiny.
As it was told:
“Pan’s Labyrinth” is the story of a young girl that travels with her mother and adoptive father to a rural area up North in
Spain , 1944 after Franco’s victory. The girl loves in an imaginary world of her own creation and faces the real world with much chagrin. Post-war Fascist repression is at its height in rural
Spain and the girl must come to terms with through a fable of her own.”
Life is a Labyrinth. We need to belief in miracle. Belief in every words we said and done. Like, today, I had meeting with a friend. My friend – Faiq, he said that there is man he known can stop the rain whenever he wants to. That was interesting and then I try … and well ya that day was raining, we stuck in a place where Faiq bought a tomato juice, and I said to him that the rain will stop in 20 minutes. And it happened. The rain stop and I said, ‘we should go home now, because rain will pour down again when I reach home.’ And then we go home, and rain started the action. I was laugh … we laugh … “Ahh …It’s only a faith-game”, he said, “If you believe things will happened exactly like you hope for.” A friend of mine, Syav, he said also that Nature will help you follow your hope and belief.
At night where my other friends and I planned to have dinner together, rain down very hard. And it felt like it never stopped. And I said, it will stop for about 10 minutes and will rain again after that, for about 15 minutes and it will stop until midnight. And it happened. (Chuckling)
The ‘Pan’s Labyrinth’, for people who thought that dreamland is a hocus pocus, is described what so called as panic. The children – Ofelia, is panic with her new situation of the father’s death and her sick and pregnant mother, and also with her new father. Her panic creates new imaginary land with its creatures. But, for Ofelia, the world is not just fantasy; it’s real for those who believe. The underworld realm where se came from was not just unrealistic realm. It was real. It’s just like, my silent garden (Taman Sunyi) – a world where I can have joy with myself in my world.
Life is a Labyrinth. I mean it with this. There are so many roads and doors where you can found dilemmas and facing many ethical problems. People blame you for doing such and such while they continue hoping for changing. And when you feel confused, you could only hope and try to do better things. But if we realize that we will return to our Father, we won’t so desperate and smile though we face fears and sorrows.
Valhalland, 14 April 2007
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GreeN ThoughT for GreeN EartH
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“Each of us is responsible for everything to everyone else”
- Fyodor Dostoevski
First, the environmental crises we are facing now are at the same time local and global – if not universal. Yes I do agree with this. If you are a green people which has a thought that the biggest sin of all is ruining the micro and macro cosmos, than you will feel that the crisis which happened to the Earth is a universal one – if not local and global. Earth is a place we live in and if we don’t give her our positive energy, then who will?
Second, I do agree that the crises are so huge – until only that science or technology or one single government/community would not be able to solve them. So religions are here expected to play roles. But I’m not going to stressed on ‘religion’, I tend to expected that ‘spirituality’ will play the role. Spirituality – the heart of religion is the language where all mankind would able to understand in any circumstances. Not really that science cannot help or technology, government or community is helpless, it is just they haven’t give their best shot.
Third, yes, there is a fact that every religion has its own language. They have difference system of theology, beliefs, ritual, and ethics. But we should not forget about ‘the heart of every religions’, that is: Spirituality. With this language, the Babelian problem is no longer problematic. Everyone will speak the same thing: ‘A better future for mankind and the Earth.’ Just like Martin Buber stated, “All real living is meeting.” Otherwise, Greenpeace will not exist until today, or other wise I will not have that smile when I saw ‘The Body Shop’ motto: “Againts Animal Testing, Support Community Trade, Active Self-esteem, Defend Human-Right, Protect Our Planet.”
Religion – probably won’t help too much. But it spirituality will able to cross the borders and put everyone in the same level of humanity. They will speak the same things. They will use the same language. And little by little they will learn other language, or even start to understand other language – if not using it also when they want to speak to God. Perhaps … it is already the time where we realize that we’re living in the Aquarian Age and asking, ‘why green?’
Let’s set up what so called by Marilyn Ferguson as ‘The Whole-Earth Conspiracy’ to save the Earth. Perhaps, we don’t have that power like Alwi Shihab (politician, ex minister) had. But in the place where I ever lived, there are several people sit together and meditate to heal the Earth using their positive energy. They use, ‘RLAL’ or the power of Rahmatan Lil Al-Amin, led by Muhammad Shahab (healer from Ledok), they continue their healing process of their selves and of course, Mother Earth. For me, it’s only a matter of how we are creative in ways of living, dying, and healing. And it is as easy as imagining when people from other culture, religion, rich people, poor people, cross over the bridge – the same bridge, where it will lead to a place in which people can sit together and try to solve the common problems. []
